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Sunday, April 10, 2011
8:43 PM

This blog is ancient.

Well it's been YEARS, literally, since I've updated this. I wonder who still uses blogspot nowadays. Should I migrate to Tumblr? lol.

Exams are just around the corner. Mugging like a nerd right now.

"In a relationship, the guy moves around a lot. He stands in front of the girl so when things get tough, she can run into his arms and be comforted. He stands behind her so when she thinks she can't handle anymore and falls, he's there to catch her and reassure her she can do anything. Most importantly, he stands beside her, so when she's ready to take on the world, he's there to hold her hand and take it on with her."

PS: anything before this post, was a thing of the past. My naive self. haha

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Thursday, October 26, 2006
1:46 AM

Honey's Sick!

On first thought, the title doesn't make any right sense. Nevertheless, Karmen (my honey) is sick. She's down with food poisoning. Hope everything will be alright. Let's all pray for a speedy recovery.

Anyway, here are the photos I promised. Video will be uploaded soon.

"I wasn't gonna smack this cake into your face, I swear!!"

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Sunday, October 22, 2006
1:35 AM

Smack That!

I've been listening to Akon - Smack That. It has this catchy tune to the repeating lyrics. A part of the lyrics, "I feel you creepin', I can see you from my shadow.
Wanna jump up in my Lamborghini Gallardo. " If only I own one, any kind souls nice enough to get me a Lambo? Model doesn't matter. ;)

First of all, I want to thank all of my friends, especially my honey for celebrating my 19th birthday together. It was fun and exicting, crazy would be the perfect notation. Pictures will be uploaded soon.

Here's a photo of what Karmen made. I personally find it beautiful and it touched me so much.

I can't wait to meet her again this Sunday after training. Speaking of which, I missed today's, due to some complications I had with mom earlier on in the day. Hari Raya's just around the corner. Much more preparation needed. Hope my room will be sparkling clean (wonder if that's a miracle) by this Tuesday.

School's re-opening soon, SIP still continue as usual till mid January. Good and bad news, more chances to meet my honey, less time to spend with her. =
To my honey (if you're reading this): I love you!! Happy 5th month anniversary (everyday's our anniversary in fact =P )

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Sunday, July 16, 2006
3:13 AM

Time

* "I wasted time, and now doth time waste me;

For now hath time made me his numbering clock:
My thoughts are minutes; and with sighs they jar
Their watches on unto mine eyes, the outward watch,
Whereto my finger, like a dial's point,
Is pointing still, in cleansing them from tears.
Now sir, the sound that tells what hour it is
Are clamorous groans, which strike upon my heart,
Which is the bell: so sighs and tears and groans
Show minutes, times, and hours"
- King Richard in Shakespeare's Richard II.

Time is something I've always wished for more. There seems to be never enough time to do everything within a single day. Ever wonder how different it would be like to have 25hours a day, and 8 days a week? The 8th day might even be call "Moon"-day since Sunday is already Sunday. On top of that, which day will the 8th day come after? Will restaurants open 24/8?

It's been quite some time since I last went on a date with Karmen. I miss her so much. Time can tell, but time waits for no man. If only I had a time machine, I'll always turn back time and relive the good old days. Then again, the saying "let bygones be bygones" kicks in here. I'm praying for a better tomorrow, I don't need an extra hour in a day, neither an extra day in a week. All I ever want is just to spend more of this limited time with her.

-Missing you more than words could describe-

I shall leave you with these quotes for you to reflect upon.

"The flow of time is always cruel... its speed seems different for each person, but no one can change it... A thing that does not change with time is a memory of younger days..." - Sheik

"Time is precious, but its value changes with time." ~ Gijo P. Cherian

"Time is nature's way of keeping everything from happening at once." ~ Woody Allen

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Monday, July 10, 2006
9:24 PM

Lack of Updates

Yea. I can repeat the title again. I've been very busy recently. No inspiration to write or type. Then again, life for me has been blissful. I know this would be kinda outdated, but congratulations to the Temasek Polytechnic men's and women's Dragon Boat team. Let's strive for more.

These past two weeks have been a "Sprain Week". I've sprained my ankle rather badly in fact. However, I suppose I'm recovering fast, though it's still swelling like a pig trotter. Charmaine and cheryl sprained theirs too. Oh and my honey, she's got a sprained back. I really hope she's alright.

To Karmen my honey, I'm always missing you when you're not by my side. I want to thank you for being there for me countless times. Thanks for the hugs and kisses, thanks for the hospitality, thanks for the endless support, thanks for the laughters. I could never list everything down (due to poor memory =X ). This chapter of my life has been interesting with you, scripted into it. I love you. =D

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Tuesday, June 13, 2006
9:01 PM

Mahjong Esctasy

Picture yourself sitting in one of the four seats, surrounded by three other competitors. Tiles on the green felt, plastic chips representing coins or more known as money, even the clanging sounds of the tiles are music to the ears of the four.

What am I ranting about? It's Mahjong!

4 aunties, 140 tiles, [maybelin was here! lizard arh! ham stinks], loads of fun? Maybeline is just sulking, 'cuz she's the one who's stinking (she didn't shower after training) Charmaine's place. Oh I forgot to mention, we were having a small gathering at Charmaine's.

Though I wasn't really sure who won the most in the end ('cuz I'm typing all these), soccer wasn't really all that happening either, till Korea Republic scored 2 goals.

I got to meet Karmen. The actual plan was to hang out on Monday, but didn't have the chance to. She got a slight stomach flu after eating 6 packets of shrivelled sea weeds. LOL! Damn I'm missing her. I can't wait for her to be at my place. We're gonna have a small inline skating session with my 7-year old sister. Mom's gonna be back late, I'm wondering if there'll be dinner.

To Cheryl if she's reading this, hope you're having fun at Cambodia. Don't forget to buy me some gifts. We sure do miss you a lot!

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Friday, June 09, 2006
1:25 PM

Regret

Life's been blissful for me, but for this morning's entry, I'll touch on something negative.

Regret.

re·gret ( P ) Pronunciation Key (r-grt)
v. re·gret·ted, re·gret·ting, re·grets
v. tr.

1. To feel sorry, disappointed, or distressed about.
2. To remember with a feeling of loss or sorrow; mourn.

v. intr.

To feel regret.

n.

1. A sense of loss and longing for someone or something gone.
2. A feeling of disappointment or distress about something that one wishes could be different.
3. regrets A courteous expression of regret, especially at having to decline an invitation.

Everyone hates regrets. It gets you down. It forces you to sulk and stare for so many hours when you could be doing a lot of productive things. It keeps your mind asleep when your eyes are clearly wide awake. However, regrets, just like any other thing in life, has a purpose. It's an early warning device that steers us off certain roads that will send us to impending doom.
Whenever I hear people say in beauty pageants that they do not have regrets in life, I don’t believe them. Everybody has them, but nobody wants to admit it. Regrets are only natural, because we’re only human. We can never walk on two roads simultaneously, we can never be at two places at once, and we can never really do things at the same time. While walking on the second path, we can’t help but think about what would be happening right now if we took the first one.
With all that said, let me list down my top 5 regrets in life, from 5 to 1…

My Top 5 Regrets In Life...

#5 - I should've learned more in kindergarten.
These lessons are taught during the earliest years. I shouldn't have dismissed them as “corny” and “unrealistic”. These lessons are the simplest in every way and form, but as we grow up, we usually complicate them and fail to do them when the time comes.
These lessons are so easy to do, and we could do them in a simple whim if we just did our best. We are reminded of their importance in life always… Say please when you need something. Say thank you when you receive a blessing from others. Always do your best. Take good care of your belongings. Do not risk your safety. Always fall in line and be patient. Ask for things with respect and don't sulk when you don’t get them. Strive to learn. Lower your pride. Respect your elders. Keep yourself clean.
There are a lot more to list down. These are the lessons we learn early in life but fail to do as we grow up. Usually, it is only when we've matured that we learn of their importance. If only I've followed these rules strictly, I would've retained countless friends and made so much more…

#4 - I shouldn't have left those test questions blank.
Sometimes when we don't know the answer to a test question, we leave it blank. Because we're too afraid of making a mistake, we refuse to make a decision.
But later in life, I have learned that not making a decision is, in itself, a decision. Usually, it is the worst choice of all. Not only do we get nothing as a reward, we do not learn anything because we have not made any mistakes.
I can't help but slap myself for the times when I refused to make a decision for the fear of making a mistake. Choosing something is better than not choosing anything at all…

#3 - I should've kept an open mind always.
There are times in my life when I could have learned a lot more things if I just didn’t close my mind to it all. There are times when I look at things and tell myself “I already know that”, sealing my mind off completely. Now, when I need those bits of information, when something comes up, I usually hack through the recesses of my head any tell myself “I heard that before but I don't remember”. Now I'm starting to feel the pangs of wasted time. If only I've done my best to learn from anything and everything, I wouldn't be wasting so much time studying and searching all over again.

#2 - I should've done my best.
This one, I'm sure, is a common regret. We usually think of our failures and tell ourselves that the outcome wouldn’t have been so tragic if only we have done our best. From things as simple as essay-writing contests to those as important as relationships, I would've done so much more in life if I only tried my best.
Sometimes we just don't see the value of giving it our all. Often, we stop in the middle of what we're doing and tell ourselves that it's hopeless and there's no point in giving all our energy for something. When the feelings of regret come in, we shake our own necks and tell ourselves “you should've done your best!”
A teacher once told me a story: There were three contestants in a pie-eating contest. Two of them tried their best, and one of them, thinking that winning was hopeless, ate slowly and peaceably. The winner was given a trophy and a lifetime of fond memories. The loser, who would've won if only he tried his best, was punished with the feelings of regret for the rest of his life. The loser who tried his best was rewarded a life without regret and a free meal!

#1 - I should have appreciated my parents more.
When I was young, my temper tantrum would get so unruly that I would literally scream at my parents that I hated them. I'd get annoyed even more because whenever they would hear this, they would just keep their patience and calmly tell me that someday, I would understand.
Now that I am aware of inflation, the fall of pre-need companies, corruption in our government and the other problems of society, I usually scratch my head and wonder “how the heck did I finish school?”
It is only now that I get affected with tuition fee increases and the rising prices of basic commodities. It is only now that I can fully understand the Income Tax reports that my parents pass to the government. I would look at the measly income they were making, and then I would look at our comfortable house and ask myself “how the heck did they do all of this?” Sometimes I would wonder how my parents were able to send all four of us to great schools. I would wonder how they could ever afford sending me to polytechnic.
I wonder how they could have stomached such a rebellious and unruly child such as me. Worst of all, I'd wonder if I could do the same thing if I had my own share of rebellious and unruly children.

I'll probably carry these regrets to the grave, but I will keep them with me as important lessons so that I won't commit the same mistakes over and over again. Though a lot of people tell me that thinking about regrets are a total waste of time, I really don't think so. In fact, I think regrets should be thought about, maybe a few seconds each day will suffice!

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